more ranting from a teenage psychopath... | imxherexbutxyouxdontxseexme's Blog

ok.lol. i was just kidding on the title to this but for real this is more of my ranting....

ok im stuck in a horrible place right now with the topic of so many teenage rants....friends.

alright i have one group of friends who think that my other group of friends are posers. and on of my "poser" friends started dating another one of my "poser" friends and then they broke up and now im stuck in the middle.

ok my "poser" best friend has been there for me since seventh grade and i dont know how to tell him this nicely but he really does kind of act like a poser sometimes because he tries so hard to fit in. well on of my other friends whom i have known since he was in seventh grade and he is like two or three years older than me( we really just started hanging out this year tho') thinks that i should stop hanging out with my other friend and its making me really mad because he says that i am better than that, that i shouldnt hang out with posers. its all really confusing.

and my best friend who is kind of a poser but im afraid to tell him that he started dating my other friend and they broke up, and my best friend tried to commit suicide last night and my other friend tried to commit suicide and i had to talk them both out of it and now they wont talk to each other and im kind of stuck in the middle with them, because they both want me to hang out with them on halloween and i told them that i couldnt and now they think that i am giving the other more attention.  they dont believe me when i tell them that our theatre group is having a hard time getting funds so we are making flyers for our show and handing them out on halloween instead of going trick or treating.(and no im NOT to old.lol.)

and im still trying really hard to keep my promise to my friend that i wont cut but its getting really difficult. and right now i have no music which is just making my situation worsebecause im going kind of crazy.

out of all of that i have good news. my friend that almost died in the car wreck is better, andhe got to move back home so me and him get to hang out all the time again. he is the one that made me promise not to cut. but my mom doesnt want to hang out with him because she thinks that he does coke because he has these scars under his eyes that make him look like he hasnt slept for days, and he lost a lot of weight since i last seen him. but he is like 100% better and only lost a little bit of his vision. which is amazing because the docs expected him to not ever be able to see agian.

oh one more problem before i post this. (another very common teenage rant) theres this guy....

well there is a guy and he is really sweet and he flirts with me all the time but hes got some problems. some drug problems. well nothing serious. he is just too young to smoke and drink and he does weed when he has the money. well my brother knows about this and wont let me see him anymore. not that we where ever going out. but it really ticks me off, because i mean is this really the best thing. i have a feeling that this is one of those times that the adults in my life should just let me make my own mistake and learn from them.

grrrrr.

much love to everyone,

tXs

p.s. i have one more problem(for real this time) and im going to post this....

my friend will not talk to me. i havent done anything to her, but i tried to call her the other day and he mom said that she didnt want to talk to me. so i tried to talk to her at school the next day she completely ignored me. i asked my other friend what was wrong, she said that she didnt want to talk about it. im confused so bad. ok im done for real this time...