wow confused much?. | imxherexbutxyouxdontxseexme's Blog

my used-to-be-best friend just called me. i didnt even know that he had my number cause i got a new cell and i never gave him the number. but thats besides the point. anyways he just called me and he said that he was just callin to talk. which is risky in itself cause his girlfriend is so friggin paraniod thats why me and him arent really that close no more cause his girlfriend said he had to choose me or her. but i mean its not like i have a lack for friends he was just my best friend. but anyways he was just like "yeah i was just callin to say hi call me back when ya get this" he had to leave a voice message cause i had my phone off during church. and so when i got out i called him back and he siad that he was just callin to chat. so we where talking bout stupid stuff, concerts comin to town, the rodeo, the parade, stupid stuff like that when all of a sudden he asks me what i think about his girl havin a baby. i was stuned into  silence but recovered quickly and was like its kool. then he just like starts yellin bout something, i dont even know cause i couldnt understand him, i dont even know if he was yellin at me or not, then he starts cryin, like i can hear it over the phone. and of course i dont do well when people start cryin cause i dont ever know what to do.(the way i was brought up cryin is weak and so you just dont do it). but i know that hes high cause he dont ever cry when hes sober, and then he composes himself enough to speak semi-clearly, and hes like "i dont know im not ready to be a dad, i dont even love her" i already knew that he didnt love the chick but i mean hes kinda stuck with her now cause i know that if he leaves her now her brother will......ummmmm.. lets just say he wont be happy. but now my friend has decided to drop outta school and get a job, and his chick is gonna drop out have the kid and then go back to school as soon as she can cause she wants to be a nurse when she grows up. it makes me mad because my friend is sacrificing his future to stay with someone he doesnt even love for this kid and shes gonna go back to school and hes gonna go straight to work with no option of ever finishing high school. i mean its like he doesnt have any options now. and his dad has already kicked him out so hes already living with his girl and her family and right now hes learning how to give people tattoos(real ones) cause thats what her stepdad does so hes tryin to learn how to do that even though thats not what he wanted to do with his life. im just kinda mad at everything right now cause its like hearing about things like this happening makes me feel rich and a heck of alot better off than them. and i mean its like one mistake and your screwed(no pun intended).

so the moral to this story kids is dont play around with fate cause fate plays dirty.lol.